Tuesday, June 14, 2005
The Third Lap
When competing in track, running the mile during high school, it was the third lap that was the worst. You had adreneline for the first two laps and guts for the last one, but there was nothing to help you during the third lap.
My life is on the third lap right now. I have been very industrious and hard working up to now and I'm looking at the finish line a little too early. There's one more lap left; I have to work for a longer period. The great thing about it is that I can receive a pension and work full time as well. Maybe because I am making more money through my pension that many people don't get working full time, keeps me looking at the finish line.
I am studying for my new profession; real estate. I've done this before but did not have the desire to do it then. Now I have a reson to be an agent. I get to work odd hours and have my days to myself. That solitude has been a welcome advantage of my present state. During that time I have found I am disciplined enough to keep the TV off, not to have a drink until the end of the day, and to keep studying, besides keeping the house in order.
I know that I have no support to be doing what I am right now. There is no respect, but then I have to remember that my wife is a perfectionist and I will never be perfect, so anything less than perfection is a failure. In her eyes, she is being merciful to a pathetic loser.
No, I'm far from perfect, but I have learned what God put us on this earth for; not to create wealth, but to share our love and compassion with others. So what will motivate me in real estate will be the same thing that motivates me to work for a pittance at Home Depot; to help people.
I don't expect any improvement in Donna's attitude once I begin a new career, but I will continue toward it, just the same. I have also learned that you cannot let someone else affect you attitude. I am so thankful to be alive and to be healthy. I enjoy what God has given me. I also am motivated to think I need to stay healthy to give my grandchildren a grandfather. That is the best form of giving, which would give me the greatest joy.
My life is on the third lap right now. I have been very industrious and hard working up to now and I'm looking at the finish line a little too early. There's one more lap left; I have to work for a longer period. The great thing about it is that I can receive a pension and work full time as well. Maybe because I am making more money through my pension that many people don't get working full time, keeps me looking at the finish line.
I am studying for my new profession; real estate. I've done this before but did not have the desire to do it then. Now I have a reson to be an agent. I get to work odd hours and have my days to myself. That solitude has been a welcome advantage of my present state. During that time I have found I am disciplined enough to keep the TV off, not to have a drink until the end of the day, and to keep studying, besides keeping the house in order.
I know that I have no support to be doing what I am right now. There is no respect, but then I have to remember that my wife is a perfectionist and I will never be perfect, so anything less than perfection is a failure. In her eyes, she is being merciful to a pathetic loser.
No, I'm far from perfect, but I have learned what God put us on this earth for; not to create wealth, but to share our love and compassion with others. So what will motivate me in real estate will be the same thing that motivates me to work for a pittance at Home Depot; to help people.
I don't expect any improvement in Donna's attitude once I begin a new career, but I will continue toward it, just the same. I have also learned that you cannot let someone else affect you attitude. I am so thankful to be alive and to be healthy. I enjoy what God has given me. I also am motivated to think I need to stay healthy to give my grandchildren a grandfather. That is the best form of giving, which would give me the greatest joy.
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