Saturday, November 08, 2003
The last football game of the season
Friday, November 07, 2003
Trying to get some rest
It's 5:30 a. m. on a Friday. I'm in a nice little hotel, more like a B & B, and trying to get some R & R from being from life as I know it. The temperatrue is controlled, the light is not affecting me, I took a pill last night, I didn't have but two glasses of wine, what's wrong with this picture?
Sleep does not come easily anymore; I don't drink regular coffee or caffinated sodas, hardly any carbonated drinks at all. I supplement my diet with vitamins, a lot of stress vitamins, and fish oil, and flax seed oil, and this pill for high blood pressure. I don't get enough exercise and I think that is the key.
Donna, my wife of 34 years, says that my stress is easier to handle because I have control, not like the lowly teacher that has no control. I realize what she is saying and I don't get frequent colds or lung congestion like I used to, so I suppose she is right. But the fact that I have to be in charge of so many facets of the school takes its toll.
We are walking around Longwood Gardens today, to take in the beauty and to relax. She has gone throuh an ugly campaign for town council and lost by twenty votes. She has not slept well in weeks. One night I counted the seconds between her tossing to get to sleep. I am beginning to dream of the things I would like to do when I retire. I want a dog to train, I want to work on projects made of wood. I want to kayak and bike and skate. I want to sell things on eBay. I want to hike with my dog up the mountains. I want to make mutually desired love to my wife.
Life is a journey and I am beginning to think of a destination. This is not the best situation. I thank God for my job everyday and ask for His guidance and protection. He gives it, but lately I think He thinks I can take more pressure than I think I can. Is all this personnel management training going to go to training a dog? I don't know what is planned. I may not have a future, but I have to think about how I'm doing right now and how I would like to enjoy some free time. Now If I could only sleep past 8 hours some nights.
Sleep does not come easily anymore; I don't drink regular coffee or caffinated sodas, hardly any carbonated drinks at all. I supplement my diet with vitamins, a lot of stress vitamins, and fish oil, and flax seed oil, and this pill for high blood pressure. I don't get enough exercise and I think that is the key.
Donna, my wife of 34 years, says that my stress is easier to handle because I have control, not like the lowly teacher that has no control. I realize what she is saying and I don't get frequent colds or lung congestion like I used to, so I suppose she is right. But the fact that I have to be in charge of so many facets of the school takes its toll.
We are walking around Longwood Gardens today, to take in the beauty and to relax. She has gone throuh an ugly campaign for town council and lost by twenty votes. She has not slept well in weeks. One night I counted the seconds between her tossing to get to sleep. I am beginning to dream of the things I would like to do when I retire. I want a dog to train, I want to work on projects made of wood. I want to kayak and bike and skate. I want to sell things on eBay. I want to hike with my dog up the mountains. I want to make mutually desired love to my wife.
Life is a journey and I am beginning to think of a destination. This is not the best situation. I thank God for my job everyday and ask for His guidance and protection. He gives it, but lately I think He thinks I can take more pressure than I think I can. Is all this personnel management training going to go to training a dog? I don't know what is planned. I may not have a future, but I have to think about how I'm doing right now and how I would like to enjoy some free time. Now If I could only sleep past 8 hours some nights.
